Wishing

Ever feel like you wish too much?

I wish it was the weekend…
I wish I was more understood…
I wish I could get more sleep…
I wish it wasn’t so cold…
I wish it wasn’t so hot…
I wish I could eat a nice piece of bread…
I wish I wish it would snow…
I wish it was sunnier…

I don’t want my life to be that way, but I often catch myself right after “wishing” for something that’s not right in front of me, and then I think to myself, “stephanie, you’re going to wish your life right away….” I don’t always recognize it when I’m doing it, but I’m glad that I have those moments where I realize that I have so much to be thankful for, and I resolve once again to be more careful about what I wish for and more present in what I actually have.

And what I actually have is really quite amazing.

I was looking at pictures with Lindsey this morning of some of the many fun things that we’ve done together, and I was once again struck by how thankful I am that we are people who go on adventures and live life to the fullest…People who really try to embrace life even though it stings something awful (and even hurts something fierce) to embrace it so sometimes….People who truly believe in the beauty of this life we’ve been given and the power each moment can hold….People who want to live like masterpieces that the Creator has made. I always want us to strive to be these people, and sometimes when I look at our adventures or we plan something or we talk about a memory, I feel like we are at least a glimmer of those people…

…And it makes me very very thankful…And it chases the wishing out of my heart (no matter how innocent a wish)….And I feel full of joy and peace and hope. :)

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