I have two thoughts about this morning thus far…
One: I love to see my girl writing scripture. Honoring Truth in our household is so important to me!!
My adventure for today is keeping my nose buried in this book and my fingers typing out the rest of a paper and completing this British Lit 1 class for good!
For tomorrow I start British Lit 2…
Ok, not really.
Just keep studying, just keep studying, study, study, study, study…
He is jealous for me, Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,
Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden, I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realize just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me.
Oh, how He loves us
how He loves
(David Crowder Band)
It’s so warm today. But the snow isn’t melting as fast as I thought it might. Icy takes a long time to warm, frozen numbness takes a long time to melt away. Sometimes it feels so much easier to “numb” than it does to just feel something. Feeling can be so scary. I was staring at a frozen river on Saturday trying to think of what it made me feel inside and what it made me think of, but, even though I love the winter season, I couldn’t associate that frozen ice with anything emotionally pleasant or healing. All that came to mind was hardness, and coldness, and unmoving, unchanging space that couldn’t grow or receive. Even the rocks Lindsey pummeled at that ice barely scratched the thick cold surface.
I don’t want to be that way. Yeah, it might keep us from feeling vulnerable or scared or stupid or hurt or angry. But it also keeps us from feeling hope, growth, love, joy, peace, compassion, so many good, wonderful things.
It’s better to learn how to walk through the bad and the difficult, I think, than it is to miss out on the precious moments and beautiful feelings that come with life.
Which makes me ponder….can you even imagine how beautiful God’s heart is? If such beauty and good can exist in the world, how much more beautiful and good must He be?
:) The thought of pressing into Him makes me smile.
In other news, I’ve begun reading this before bed…
That’s right. A long and full and busy 2 weeks, and now I’m laid up in bed sick. Ah well! Such is life, especially with the immune system I have and the amount of traveling we’ve done in the last 2 weeks. :) I can’t complain, I really don’t want to! I’m glad to be home, and our boys are glad to have me laying around the house (though they follow me everywhere and Corin, our golden, watches my every move to make sure I’m not going anywhere else :P). Lindsey is back into the work swing (I don’t start again till next week) and I visited my online classroom to view the discussions that need to be posted by Thursday. The holidays are officially over, and our routine has begun again.
Things aren’t quite the same though. We’ve spent a lot of time talking and a lot of time figuring some things out that we are already beginning to implement in the new year. We are both determined to be healthier and spend more time enjoying each other. It’s so easy to get caught up in the business of life and the expectations of other people. We are focused this year on simplifying and becoming even more intentional about how we spend our time, what we focus on, and how we will choose every month (week, day, hour) to write a better story with our life together. I can’t wait to see how it all unfolds and share the stories here!
We started out the year on a good foot. Dancing in the new year together! There was champagne and cheering and laughter and smiles, and I couldn’t take my eyes off the love of my life. She was all I could think about. It was so much fun for us. :) Here is a pic of us checking out some of the art galleries in Santa Fe. The art there was so lovely! We were both inspired for sure.
We’ve done a lot in the last 2 weeks and over the entire holiday season. There have been wonderful, busy, challenging, funny, confusing, priceless, hard, triumphant, growing, special, and magical moments. I really really really did celebrate, and for that I am so thankful. :) I’m just so glad that as I walk into this new year and we leave the holiday season, that I can do so with my best friend. What a privilege!
Now I’m off to get some acupuncture and massage. It will help me kick this virus to the curb! Happy January :) Here’s to adventures even on the regular days!